Nothing. That’s what I feel. Oed the outside I can feel my feet burning on the heater. I feel the cool blood run down my skin. I feel my upper back ache, but nothing more. An empty shell.
You say there is nothing after this life. Nothing. No golden gates calling my name in the sky and no burning abyss of endless torture. Perhaps that’s because you’re afraid of both destinations.
Every time I hear it, I feel every emotion I have ever felt in the past 5 years. It captures everything. I want you to “say something” so I can’t, I won’t have to, give up on you. However, you stay silent. You refuse to say anything, so I’ll give up on you. More importantly, I’m giving up on us. Know that this song not only brings me sadness, but also peace of mind of what has happened. Furthermore, this simply eloquent song brings me hope and joy for the future.
Don’t take this the wrong way though. I will always be willing and able to have a friendship with you. I will always have hope of you making yourself a better and happier life, but I know it’ll never be with me.